If you do exist,
You would be 22 years old today.
If you are real,
My feelings for you would not be wasted.
If I can know what I wish to,
There will be no struggle nor misery.
If we will never meet,
Let this chapter of my life close silently,
Without the sounds of tears falling,
And let today be the beginning of the end.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 12/25/2003 05:28:00 PM
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Need to rush out, will write when I'm back.
Happy 22nd Birthday, you.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 12/25/2003 04:18:00 AM
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Thursday, December 18, 2003
Youyouyouyouyou
Caused so much pain.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 12/18/2003 12:43:00 AM
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Monday, December 15, 2003
Love actually ... is ... about taking big chances (both hopeful and hopeless), about making big gestures to show our love, and about big, big feelings that may make us crazy and miserable but remind us that we are alive and why we are alive.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 12/15/2003 11:58:00 PM
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Thursday, December 11, 2003
The soundtrack of Turn Left Turn Right movie plays non-stop at my work place, and in my head.
Will two parallel lines ever meet?
A line from the movie said,
Life is full of coincidences; there is a day when two parallel lines cross.
My heart wishes this day to come soon.
My head tells me this day will not come.
Even if two parallel lines cross, I will not meet Ron.
Even till I die, I will not see her. Or at least this is what V said.
Even if the sun rises from the east, even if America become a muslim country,...
Which will be easier?
By telling myself Ron is dead,
By telling myself Ron does not exist,
Or by telling myself Ron will never want to see me?
And you'll say you love me, tonight at noon.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 12/11/2003 11:27:00 PM
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Sunday, December 07, 2003
Today I thought about Ron again.
The dance moves I've missed,
The smile I have yet to see,
The possibility of her being real,
The person who V said wasn't meant to be mine.
The feeling sucked big time.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 12/07/2003 03:44:00 AM
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[ PIECES OF JADE ]
>> Ramblings.
McKean met Leafy on mIRC in late June of 2001.
Leafy left for UK around August/September 2001.
Leafy left.
Leafy last sent an email to McKean in June 2002.
McKean finally left home for UK in June 2003.
But McKean has lost Leafy forever.
Leafy was the Ice-Queen, the RainbowFlag, the Fei,
the love of McKean's life.
>> Familar Blues.
You Belong To Me [Jason Wade/Vonda Shepard]
Tian Tian (Everyday) [David Tao]
Hallo [Lionel Ritchie]
When She Danced [David Foster]
You Come To My Senses [Chicago]
Xiang Ai Ni [David Huang Dawei]
Ni Ba Wo Guan Zui [David Huang Dawei]
Promise Me [Beverly Craven]
Our Story [Tension]
