If. If we are not meant to be in this life,
If there is another life,
Will you be mine?
Will you please be mine?
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 6/26/2004 07:41:00 PM
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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
It is funny how
I still clear up
My dusty antisocial mailbox
Hoping
Wishing
Praying everyday
That one day
One fine day
You would decide pop a mail
Into this unused inbox again
Although you do know my other email addresses
And everytime I clear it
I would pick
One of the old emails from you
Read it over and over again
Till I am overwhelmed
Till I think I know
What being in love feels like
Yes
I'm such a fool.
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Fooled me with the tears in your eyes,
Covered me with kisses and lies,
So goodbye,
But please don't take my heart
You are far,
I'm never gonna be your star,
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart,
Maybe I'll be strong enough,
I don't know where to start,
But I'll never find
Peace of mind,
While I listen to my heart ...
But you knew I loved you ...
I will wait for you,
Like I always do,
There's something there,
That can't compare with any other,
You are far,
When I could have been your star,
You listened to people,
Who scared you to death and broke my heart,
Strange that I was wrong enough,
To think you'd love me too...
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 6/15/2004 06:56:00 PM
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Friday, June 11, 2004
For You.
In the words of Haruki Murakami.
"I'll never forget you," I said. "I could never forget you."
Even so, my memory has grown increasingly dim, and I havea already forgotten a number of things. Writing from memory like this, I often feel a pang of dread. What if I've forgotten the most important thing? What if somewhere inside me there is a dark limbo where all the truly important memories are heaped, and slowly turning into mud?
But that as it may be, it is all I have to work with. Clutching these faded, fading imperfect memories... I go on writing... with all the desperate intensity of a starving man sucking at his bones.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 6/11/2004 10:12:00 AM
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Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Dearest Ron,
Thought about you more lately, somehow.
The realisation of loss, of something I have never had, hits me every now and then, at the same time, driving the nail further into an old wound that never seems to heal.
Then the thought of our paths never crossing again, brings an excruciating heartache, flooding out out the earlier pain.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 6/02/2004 07:20:00 PM
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[ PIECES OF JADE ]
>> Ramblings.
McKean met Leafy on mIRC in late June of 2001.
Leafy left for UK around August/September 2001.
Leafy left.
Leafy last sent an email to McKean in June 2002.
McKean finally left home for UK in June 2003.
But McKean has lost Leafy forever.
Leafy was the Ice-Queen, the RainbowFlag, the Fei,
the love of McKean's life.
>> Familar Blues.
You Belong To Me [Jason Wade/Vonda Shepard]
Tian Tian (Everyday) [David Tao]
Hallo [Lionel Ritchie]
When She Danced [David Foster]
You Come To My Senses [Chicago]
Xiang Ai Ni [David Huang Dawei]
Ni Ba Wo Guan Zui [David Huang Dawei]
Promise Me [Beverly Craven]
Our Story [Tension]
