I had a dream, about an old lady, stingrays, and your friends.
I never saw you, but I heard your friends speak...
And they said you've stopped caring about me,
Since long, long ago.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 7/23/2004 09:24:00 AM
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Sunday, July 11, 2004
A very familiar tune from the radio, softly nudged me at 2 am in the morning.
Before I could figure out why I felt such a deep sorrow, these words came through:
I picture you on the beach
Lying in the sand
Out of reach of my trembling hands
Then I remembered it was lost from my MP3 collection when the computer crashed.
I picture you in my arms
And the touch of your skin
The smile on your face
The way that you taste
Then I remembered it was on a special list of songs I used to play.
You come to my senses
Every time I close my eyes
I have no defenses
And I remembered how someone sent it over ICQ to me, and I pretended I didn't have the song so I could have 'her copy'. I deleted the file I originally had.
I've got to find my way out of this pain
I reached for you in the night
I dreamed of your kiss
I woke before it got light
With your name on m lips
Alone in my bed
Your voice in my head
Thoughts of the past came back at a speed greater than that I could handle.
My heart sank real low, and it hurt, and I felt like crying.
You come to my senses
I can't stop this ache inside
Oh, I have no defenses
You come to my senses
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 7/11/2004 05:28:00 PM
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Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Those words I said to you,
Still linger on my mind.
With you, I live.
Without you, I exist.
After existing in limbo,
For a very long period of time,
I packed my bags,
Flew across half the globe,
And ended up where I am now.
Trying to break free,
To live my life to its fullest.
It is an obvious fact,
That life hasn't been without you.
Your physical & virtual absence,
Is being made up for,
Because you are still in my heart.
Without you, I exist.
With you, I live.
CEF registered thoughts about Ron at 7/07/2004 07:19:00 PM
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[ PIECES OF JADE ]
>> Ramblings.
McKean met Leafy on mIRC in late June of 2001.
Leafy left for UK around August/September 2001.
Leafy left.
Leafy last sent an email to McKean in June 2002.
McKean finally left home for UK in June 2003.
But McKean has lost Leafy forever.
Leafy was the Ice-Queen, the RainbowFlag, the Fei,
the love of McKean's life.
>> Familar Blues.
You Belong To Me [Jason Wade/Vonda Shepard]
Tian Tian (Everyday) [David Tao]
Hallo [Lionel Ritchie]
When She Danced [David Foster]
You Come To My Senses [Chicago]
Xiang Ai Ni [David Huang Dawei]
Ni Ba Wo Guan Zui [David Huang Dawei]
Promise Me [Beverly Craven]
Our Story [Tension]
